Still Unbelievable...

It's all still unbelievable. I was just walking through my house and it hit me again. It's so hard to believe that I am where I am. That I'm actually married to the most wonderful woman in the whole world. That we've got a house to live in that's our own. That I'm the leader of a family. That I've got a really good job. It's still so surreal... these are things that I've wanted for a long time. I've wanted to get to this point in my life for a long time. And now it's here. So unbelievable.

It's hard, lots of arguments. Some fights. Even more disagreements. But even still, it's indescribable. One minute we're having an argument, the next I feel like I've never loved her more. And I mean literally, the next minute!

The house hasn't really gotten any further, as far as painting, unpacking, etc. I guess I'm just too lazy...well I know I'm too lazy...I need to do something about that =P It's amazing how much of a mess two people can make. I guess it would be easier if we'd get everything in order and completely unpacked. Still have the den full of stuff that needs a place, and all the Christmas decorations... I have no clue where we're gonna store anything either (wish I could afford to buy an outbuilding).

And it's tough being a leader. I've gotta make decisions for my family (just me and my wife right now =P ) that I've never had to make before. We visited a new church today cause we'd like something a little closer because we would be able to be more involved in church. But I just don't know. Sometimes I feel like it's what we need to do, and then others I don't want to leave the church we're at. I don't know if it's just uncomfortable going somewhere new or, if it's not what we should be doing right now.

I haven't really made a new year's resolution cause, I usually fail only a few weeks into it. So I've decided this is my new year's resolution: to be more diligent in going to church and being involved in it. We haven't really been faithful in our attendance since we've gotten married. And it's important so I'm determined to get this area of our life straightened out. So I could use some prayer for guidance from the Lord as to where we need to be right now.

It probably sounds like all I do is complain a lot, and I do. I'm just trying to write what I feel and be as honest as possible, without saying too much. That's one thing that my wife and I have been working on, Honesty. It's tough...really tough. But it's been really great. We're doing a lot better in our communication, now that we've figured out how to be completely open with each other =) definitely one thing I encourage others that are newly married to do.

But yeah, even though it's been tough the past few weeks/months it's been wonderful. Because I know that no matter what, God is still in control, and he's always keeping us. He is faithful, even when we are not. ^_^